Away To Me

It's not easy being quesy

Yucko, I don't know if this is "morning sickness" but I feel yucky, like really yucky. I've been this way the past two days. I'm super tired and queasy all the time. Eating actually helps but not for very long. I have zero energy. ZERO, even worse than the fatigue I felt the first few weeks. If I wasn't pregnant, I'd say I had the flu. 

Today I craved carbs, really craved carbs, like mashed potatoes and bread and butter and all things not so good. I'm currently craving fried chicken. Greasy and salty fried chicken. I haven't had that for ages. It sounds eatable to me, most everything else, not so good. Well, sourdough bred (warm) with butter sounds good too. 

I've had headaches on and off the past week also. The headaches yesterday and today aren't too bad. No need for Tylenol. But they are annoying.

The gas is incredible. Seriously, I'm thinking of calling Guinness Book of World Records. I'm also up chucking and burping like a frat boy after a hot wings and beer consumption contest. WOW. This is outrages.

But all these glorious changes are putting me at ease. I'm anxious to have my next ultra sound. One week from tomorrow. 

This and that

Not much to blog about. I was reading over the weekend and taking it easy. I let daddy take over all the minute little details that I think sometimes, very rarely, but sometimes he takes for granted. Although I'm sure there are 1000 more things that he does for me that I take for granted. I need to really watch that. He's the best. He mentioned to me yesterday that I was on edge lately and that he feels like sometimes he has to walk on egg shells. I felt so terrible. So I'm making a huge effort to be more relaxed and kind. I guess I have been a tad on edge.

The PIO shots have definitely gotten to me. I'm so flipping sore, despite the fact that I'm on an every OTHER day schedule with the prometrium suppost on the days between shots. I have huge lumps that aren't going away very quickly, not to mention the bruise, it is now one continuous large bruise on my right hip, I must have hit a blood vessel. The constipation is making me a tad crabby also. Despite my one a day stool softener, my extra fruit and fiber diet and my water intake I'm still having a few issues with being plugged up. But these are NOT COMPLAINTS, merely observations and recording of such onto my blog. Giggle Giggle!

I am on edge though with all the changes about to take place in our lives. I know this is normal and I know you can't change normal and that I just have to deal with this anxiety, but it does put me on edge and I tend to snap when I'm on edge. Case in point, I went to Walmart on Saturday morning to pick up the new book Breaking Dawn which was released at midnight. The first clerk I spoke to didn't know anything about it. The second clerk was rude and said it was "A vendor item and probably isn't in yet". To which I snapped, "You have a sign, on your front door, that says, available Aug 2, which is today". She said back quite snappily, "I don't care what the sign says, I only know that this is a vendor item and we may not have it now". To which I replied, "Don't talk to me like that". I was shocked it came out of my mouth. I actually felt a little dizzy and I got sort of shaky. She started to explain herself again and I stopped her and said, "I heard you already. Is there someone who works here who does know if the book is available".  Luckily for her and for me an assistant manager arrived not 2 seconds later with a book and apology. Evidently they had gone through 5 boxes of the book by 8:30am and didn't realize they needed to put more out. My poor husband, I think he was afraid to walk with me in the store. 

Today I worked dogs. It was the first time I've worked my dogs in more than 2 months. It felt awesome. Jake had a blast and he was so good. Gosh I love this boy, he is so much like me when I was little. He's just an adventurer and free spirit. My sheep are so fat and the dogs and I equally as fat and unfit that we didn't do much work. I helped a lady out with her dog and now she's trying to convince me to give her lessons. I don't think I'm good enough yet. But she wants me to, badly and she has a friend who wants to come out also. I'm considering it. It would help me offset the cost of keeping my sheep and it would help me stay motivated to go out and work if I knew people were counting on me.

Other than those little tid bits. I'm boring. Hungry and tired, happy and anxious. 

X Games

Have you been watching the X Games. These guys are crazy! C.R.A.Z.Y! Plus I never thought I'd see people nearly my age, with spouses and children, dress and talk like 13-year-olds, while making serious money. LOL

You have to watch some of the X Games coverage it really will get your heart pumping. 

8 Weeks

Today we are 8 weeks pregnant. Things are going great as far as I'm concerned. I've not had any "scares" no spotting or other moments of panic. The babies are about the size of Raspberries now. The limb buds are forming and by the end of the week brain waves should begin. I'm going to be brave and despite my embarrassment I'm going to post some photos. Gosh I hate photos of myself.

This is me at 5 weeks pregnant. I was already feeling distended in my belly. And it wasn't just gas.

This is me at 8 weeks. Same pants that I could barely get on. They won't be in the next pic I can guarantee that. My tank top was tucked into the pants so that sort of adds a line. But I feel a lot bigger than I did three weeks ago. 

Hopkins

Have you watched this show yet? It airs on Thursdays at 10pm on ABC. You MUST watch the show. It is excellent. I must say the episode 2 weeks ago about the heart transplant needed for the two year old, was extremely upsetting to me. One of the doctors on the team said something to the effect of, "we might just need to let him die". I balled my eyes out, had to pause the TV and I was so angry I swore I wouldn't watch the show again. But I calmed down and finished and was glad for the ending.

You can go to the web site to watch the older episodes.

Symptoms are back

I wished them back I suppose. I felt so good and non-pregnant yesterday that it scared me badly. Today, no worries. Frankly I'm feeling cruddy and loving it. The only thing I don't love is the constipation which is a bear today. The queasy feeling, super tiredness, sore boobs, heightened sense of smell, the gas ( ya those last two are fun together) the constant peeing and other small differences truly are welcoming and wanted. My darling Jake is getting too much TV time on days like today, but that isn't the end of the world.

I've been really worried about how this is all going to work out. Twins is just overwhelming when I think about simple tasks like going to the market. I mean seriously, I wonder how I'll be able to manage an almost 3-year-old and 2 newborns at the same time if I have to go someplace like the market. But I keep reminding myself it will all work out. 

Oh in other news, the new fence to block Jake from the garden is going in on Monday. I'm so excited. This will help me immensely! 

HUGE Earthquake here

5.8  epicenter about 40 miles north of us. (Same city as our old home). I haven't felt one this big ever. I guess I've been in bigger ones but those happened when I was sleeping. This one actually scared me and I'm not scared easily by earthquakes. I actually think they are sort of fun.

WOW, this one shook hard. Even Jake got scared. I haven't felt an aftershock yet. Crazy!

I feel great today - which freaks me out!

Today I have more energy than I've had in weeks. I'm also less queasy. All of this should be good news, instead it sort of freaks me out. Yesterday I thought my tummy was a bit flatter, but by evening I realized it was probably the same if not bigger. Sure a lot of it is the gas, which has reached record levels. Seriously, I think they should put a meter on my butt to calculate how much methane is exiting me. I could probably generate enough to fuel a small city. Or maybe I'm in fact part of the cause for the hole in the ozone layer. If you need wallpaper removed, let me know, my fee is cheap and my gas is guaranteed to melt the old wallpaper off the walls.

On Sunday I had a huge surge of hormones and I felt worse than I have felt. My boobs were sore, my energy level was nil, the gas, the queasy feeling if I didn't eat, etc. Now today my only symptom is my sense of smell, which is through the roof! I cleaned out the fridge, I opened all the windows in the house first thing this morning to get some fresh air in. It has seemed to work.

That's the latest and greatest!

Oh and a big Happy 40th to my dear friend Jill today!

Turn On's & Turn Off's

• Turn On: Sleep Turn Off: Insomnia
• Turn On: Food (small amounts often)  Turn Off: Nausea (if I don't eat every 2 or 3 hours)
• Turn On: Rubbing my belly Turn Off: Realizing it's bloat and fat that I'm rubbing
• Turn On: 1 more appoint. w/ my RE Turn Off: Not knowing which OB to choose
• Turn On: Loving Supportive blog readers Turn Off: Reading blogs or messages that are downers
• Turn On: Being Pregnant Turn Off: Worry about how this is all going to work

Things are great, life is good. I am still in a state of euphoria. Coupled with waves of "what the hell is going to happen when these babies come/gosh I hope both these babies come". Other than normal first trimester side effects everything is going well. I have been able to avoid true morning sickness so far. For me, eating is the key. I get nauseous if I have an empty stomach. First thing in the morning I drink a small protein shake and that seems to make me feel better within in 20 mins. 

My family continues to be super excited. We had dinner on Saturday night with my brother and his girlfriend and it was great to see how giddy my brother is. My dad is the same way. Every time I talk to him he's told someone else the news. Part of me wants to tell him to not tell anyone in case something goes wrong, but I've decided that if something does go wrong, we will deal with it then. I'm not going to worry about the what if's. I have no control over them. Maybe I'm making a mistake about this, but it will be my mistake to make and I'd appreciate it if any blog readers just keep any negative opinions about this out of my comments. No offense, I know you will mean well, but for me, right now I'm only trying to stay on a positive and happy note and stay in "lala land". 

Because there are some other changes going on in our personal  lives that I can't quite share with you yet I'm a bit overwhelmed about the changes in our lives over the course of the next 6-10 months. I promise that as soon as I can share info, I will. Hopefully the end of next week I can share. Fingers crossed!

So that is the latest and greatest. 

 

7 Weeks today

7 weeks along today and looking like some people do at six months. Eek I'm huge! HUGE and bloated! And with the layer of fat on top of the bloat and distention I look darn right pregnant.

And our babies are the size of blueberries!