Not much to blog about. I was reading over the weekend and taking it easy. I let daddy take over all the minute little details that I think sometimes, very rarely, but sometimes he takes for granted. Although I'm sure there are 1000 more things that he does for me that I take for granted. I need to really watch that. He's the best. He mentioned to me yesterday that I was on edge lately and that he feels like sometimes he has to walk on egg shells. I felt so terrible. So I'm making a huge effort to be more relaxed and kind. I guess I have been a tad on edge.
The PIO shots have definitely gotten to me. I'm so flipping sore, despite the fact that I'm on an every OTHER day schedule with the prometrium suppost on the days between shots. I have huge lumps that aren't going away very quickly, not to mention the bruise, it is now one continuous large bruise on my right hip, I must have hit a blood vessel. The constipation is making me a tad crabby also. Despite my one a day stool softener, my extra fruit and fiber diet and my water intake I'm still having a few issues with being plugged up. But these are NOT COMPLAINTS, merely observations and recording of such onto my blog. Giggle Giggle!
I am on edge though with all the changes about to take place in our lives. I know this is normal and I know you can't change normal and that I just have to deal with this anxiety, but it does put me on edge and I tend to snap when I'm on edge. Case in point, I went to Walmart on Saturday morning to pick up the new book Breaking Dawn which was released at midnight. The first clerk I spoke to didn't know anything about it. The second clerk was rude and said it was "A vendor item and probably isn't in yet". To which I snapped, "You have a sign, on your front door, that says, available Aug 2, which is today". She said back quite snappily, "I don't care what the sign says, I only know that this is a vendor item and we may not have it now". To which I replied, "Don't talk to me like that". I was shocked it came out of my mouth. I actually felt a little dizzy and I got sort of shaky. She started to explain herself again and I stopped her and said, "I heard you already. Is there someone who works here who does know if the book is available". Luckily for her and for me an assistant manager arrived not 2 seconds later with a book and apology. Evidently they had gone through 5 boxes of the book by 8:30am and didn't realize they needed to put more out. My poor husband, I think he was afraid to walk with me in the store.
Today I worked dogs. It was the first time I've worked my dogs in more than 2 months. It felt awesome. Jake had a blast and he was so good. Gosh I love this boy, he is so much like me when I was little. He's just an adventurer and free spirit. My sheep are so fat and the dogs and I equally as fat and unfit that we didn't do much work. I helped a lady out with her dog and now she's trying to convince me to give her lessons. I don't think I'm good enough yet. But she wants me to, badly and she has a friend who wants to come out also. I'm considering it. It would help me offset the cost of keeping my sheep and it would help me stay motivated to go out and work if I knew people were counting on me.
Other than those little tid bits. I'm boring. Hungry and tired, happy and anxious.